So I decided to hand in my two weeks to my work place last month, I used to work for UNIQLO as one of the managers. This conviction was inside of me for weeks: every time I went to church, after a sermon, when I was at work. There were too many signs to deny it.
I loved my job. I enjoyed being a leader and being able to develop others every day at work. Not only that, I got to help open a UNIQLO store in Ontario, CA. I got to see so many people come from knowing nothing, to training others in something they finally mastered on their own. That made me proud. I always worked my hardest and pushed my body to the max. However, with time this job slowly became my identity. It gave me a status that gave me a nasty pride where I started to think that I’m better than others. I was becoming a monster internally.
I was studying in the book of Matthew, “If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body be thrown into hell.” (Matthew 5:29) If one part of yourself causes you to sin, get rid of it. That’s how serious sin is. For me, it was this job. I was comfortable to the point I was convicted to be uncomfortable. So I prayed and prayed, “LORD, what do you want me to do?” This verse came into my heart: “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” (Proverbs 3:5-6) So I trusted in God that He will make my path straight.
I went to Vietnam for 2 weeks. Every night this haunted me. What have I done? I’m not going to have a stable income anymore! Then God rebukes me. I was reading Matthew 8 when I came across this story:
23 Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24 Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25 The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!”
26 He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.
27 The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!” -Matthew 8:23-27
I was a bit confused. Why did Jesus rebuke his disciples? Then the LORD opened my eyes. Jesus said two things 1. You men of little faith. 2. Why are you so afraid? Their reality was that they were going to drown, but they failed to see that Jesus was on their boat. Jesus needs to be our reality. If He lead us in the boat, we better trust that He will keep us safe IN the boat, all the way until we have reached our destination. We don’t need to worry. We don’t need to fear. Jesus is on our boat.
It reminded me of a song I sang as a kid:
So now I am making video and investing in Vietglish Fun. It’s a whole other journey, but I going for it. Jesus is on my boat.